A Sad Post

Is it okay to write a sad post? I think it should be, because I'm sad.

My baby died. :(

This past week has been a long painful miscarriage and I'm very sad to have lost my perfect little angel baby.

For the record, miscarriages are miserable.

I try to focus on the positive such as:

• Now I can ride on roller coasters again. Maybe I will go to Lagoon.
• I can eat whatever I want.
• I can get more schooling done before adding to our family.
• Myles can now take an internship this summer anywhere in America without having to work around out due date.
• We adopted a puppy.

His name is Joey.

We are very excited to have a happy puppy in our home, although he can be naughty. He helps to cheer me up during the day, especially when Myles is gone. He can be a handful sometimes, but I know it's not much compared to what a baby will be like. We love him. :)

Also, our anniversary is coming up! The puppy is an anniversary present as well as a consolation to us. But how should we celebrate? I'm trying to convince Myles that we should go to Lagoon! Hopefully we will go. :)

10 Reasons I Love My Husband

If this will make you barf, you don't have to read it, but I think it's important to record the reasons I love him.

1. I've had a box of truffles in the fridge for almost a month and Myles hasn't even touched them. Now if that's not true love, what is?!

2. He hugs me and kisses my face every morning even when I'm half asleep and haven't brushed my teeth.

3. He has the most perfect smile in the whole world.

4. I get to see that perfect smile every day when we snuggle and laugh together. Snuggling+laughing=love.

5. He works so hard in school and work, and then comes home and makes dinner and does other things for me and baby.

6. He sings along to country music songs. With character too. Then laughs at himself. :D

7. He gives the best kisses in the whole world and has the nicest lips ever.

8. When he wakes up in the morning he stretches (arches his back, bends his elbows) and makes screeching dinosaur noises.

9. He talks to baby, dreams about him (he is certain we're having a boy), is the perfect uncle to our nieces and nephews, and is so excited to be a Daddy! Plus he likes cool baby names.

10. He loves me a lot. :)

Big News

Well hello blog! I've been so busy lately I haven't updated you! I have big news! Sorry, you're the last to know because I told facebook last week. Now you know where my priorities truly are.

Anyway, I'm pregnant! And I'm so excited! And the cherry on top of this awesome Sunday news is that I'm due on MOTHER'S DAY! :D What are the chances of that? Yes, I'm due on May 8th 2011 and I am so excited! I have my first appointment with my midwife clinic tomorrow and I can't wait to hear my little baby's heartbeat! Not excited for the needles though... It's all out of love!

Yes blog, we were planning this pregnancy. We decided last April that we would start trying in August so that our little angel would come right after school gets out, and we got pregnant real quick!

When we first got married,I wanted to wait at least a year to have kids because I wanted to finish school and have more time with my husband etc... But Myles wanted them right away! So as time went on we kept talking about it and Myles had some good points and the spirit kept working on me until finally I gave up my pride and decided to give up on that one year thing. And now I'm so excited! I'm definitely happy with my choice.

We wanted to keep the pregnancy a secret a little longer, but certain events made that extremely difficult. Myles was so excited that he told Ross (the husband of my cousin Elizabeth) and Elizabeth was on the phone. We were worried that Liz might tell my Aunt Kerynne who might tell my Mother and we definitely didn't want my Mom to hear through the grapevine. So we decided to tell the family. But we just wanted to keep it in the family for a while.

...But Bonnie didn't know that it was just in the family so she put it on facebook. So I gave up! Now everyone knows! Hopefully the baby stays healthy so we only have good news to tell everyone throughout the pregnancy.

I'm 8 weeks pregnant today and that past 8 weeks have been filled with occasional stomach aches, a slightly more moody demeanor, constant hunger, and unrelenting exhaustion. On top of that I've got my 18 credit hours to keep up with so it's difficult to get all the rest I want. But I want to get as much school done as I can before the baby comes so I'm pushing through all my assignments. I'm not too focused on grades this semester just as long as I pass all my classes.

When I hear our baby's heartbeat tomorrow it will make all this worth it!

Women's Chorus!

Well, I'm in Women's chorus! Yesterday I got a call from one of the co-directors confirming that I made it in, and also asking why I wasn't in that day's rehearsal... oops! I thought they were still having Alto callbacks! I told him I would for sure be in today's rehearsal. Then I looked at the flyer they gave us about callbacks, and in big, BOLD letters it said "The final roster for Women's chorus will be posted Thursday morning. The first rehearsal will begin that afternoon at 3pm." Epic Fail. I'm lucky they didn't kick me out!
I'm also auditioning for Noteworthy today which is an awesome a capella women's group that does fun songs and was on TV last year! They're going to France this year. How awesome would that be?!?! Wish me luck!